I got a reading today because I prefer objectivity when I am looking ahead at the month or anticipating any advice.
I’ve been sitting at a crossroads in my life and for the first time ever the only thing I know is that I can’t see anything. I cannot see where I am being led, I cannot see what exact path is being laid out in front of me, I cannot see which road to take. This has been driving me crazy because as a spiritual person I can always see. I always see the good and the bad, and I am always well aware of the outcome before I ever make a step.
It’s strange now, feeling like some of my abilities have been removed so that I have to walk blind. The dreams reveal nothing like they used to, the mediation only ends with the feeling of calm not clarity (which is not bad imo), and still everyday I’m asking myself and them, “Okay so what the fuck am I supposed to be doing right now?”
I want you to know that in my reading today she gave me the answer I didn’t want: You are at a crossroads, you are not supposed to know what comes next, you are just supposed to step out on faith.
Step out into nowhere on faith.
Fine.
I know I’m meant to be a vessel in my community. I know I’m meant to create a community for those who feel alone. So, I will gather you. I will take all of the pieces of you and put them back in the right places. And I believe that when I’m in I’ll see it take form before my eyes.
Xo,
Jayd Gem